come back please, happiness!

many stories that I want back again. stories that make me feel like a little girl not have any sins, little girl who does not understand what.

I don’t know now what I have in mind. but I feel there is a change with myself. really changed, not like before anymore. indeed, not all of my behavior changed drastically. but the changes it makes me understand how a living .I fully understand how life goes. very difficult for me to receive the life that I Get.
I do not feel too lucky with my life now. especially since the events that make me upset, that incident made me feel like a big house in the destroyed by a tornado. that fact. I have some attitude has changed because of the incident. I don’t know why i can be like that. I do not understand what the meaning of the incident. events that I don’t want a second time for it. I face many difficulties that I can not finish. and I know that all of the issues that certainly have a way out its. but why can not I finish it? why can not I receive a problem that I face? I feel that a person can not do anything.
when my friends heard my complaint, they give advice and solutions. i feel a little relieved. but why only they can hear the complaints? I feel alone. and when someone comes in my life to give affection to me, I think that the fact that there is still love me.

but if it only temporary? surely there is here, there is also a go. I understand the words that. but why in the world does not have a lasting? in this world is but the eternal God. sometimes I do feel annoyed with what is happening with my life. I want as they can have what they want. they may be able to get what they want, but why can not I? oke. I will discard the thought that far.

But, why not have people who can help me when I need them are? whereas if they ask for my help, I will try to help them at that time also.